If only I knew who I really am...................in Christ. So I spent years trying to find out, doing the best I can. I emerged from the shell which so confined and restricted me for years by my upbringing, with a little bit of help from God (which is a lot for me already!).

But outside of the first shell, there is yet another one. Often I found I have deep yearning of doing something.........like a speech to make; a course to fight for; an encouragement to give; a risk to take, etc. I feel that I am as limp as a jellyfish out of water as can be.

But that is not what God says about me. According to the book of Ehpesians, he says not only has he forgiven me and adopted me, he has lavished on me all wisdom and understanding, he has made known to me the mystery of his will according to his good pleasure which he purposed in Christ. He has strengthened me with power through his spirit in my inner being, so that I may understand the width and height and depth of his love which passes all understanding, so that I may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God...........what an overwhelming promise. I feel I need ten of me to take in all these abundant treasure. The Christ in me is so big and I am so small, that only part of him can squeeze in.

So I need to make more room for him. I need to die more each day..........less available to myself and more to him, so I can experience his power that works in me. To do the impossibles, to reach for the stars, to be the person whom I am meant to be.

The world up side down in the perspective of eternity..............only 1/8 of the world's total population live without the worries of daily struggle for survival. We are part of it. On our side, there are rich people who give money to charities and mission work generously. But according to scripture Luke 13, they will not be the ones given places of honor in eternity. Those who suffer persecution and poverty for Christ's sake will. Sobering thought. Good time or bad time will only last for a short time, but it makes the world of difference. Better be the friend of those who will be in high places.